i'm in pain, really when a memory and a far off relationship are more aluring than you, what can one feel? happiness?. and i'm not blind, i see the defference in degree in his passion distribution. i'm at the losing end. I'm quite worthless to him, yet i torture myself. i dont need to go far other opertunities just come to me, why do i seem to enjoy this heart wretching pain? i turned down real people, is it to much to ask the same? oh well what ever happens, happens. in the mean time i'm left to wonder why i sound better when singing along with men, i have such a girly talking voice it odd. must be off now. good day onto you all.